I really hope that she finds a good and loving home for her. My Dad and my Mom are furious at me that I was all torn up inside about how they were not going to let me adopt this new cat and that I was not able to let go of thinking about the savannah cat and still trying to convince my parents to let me move forward in pursuing the adoption process. My dad threatened to cut me off finiancially and emotionally if I either adopted the cat without his permission or if I kept on asking him about if he would change his mind and reverse his decision about the cat for me. That is the bad news is that my dream cat I had my eye on and heart set on adopting one day will not be mine...The good news is that my dad promised me that after I get a job and settled down in life that it is OK with him for me to have all the cats I want if I can pay for them with my own money that I earn. That is important to me that I have my dads approval he threatens to disown me at least a few times a year on average. I would not want to be disowned and no longer part of the family because I like cats and want a variety of pets in my life in the near future. My parents do not want me to move back home after completing the credential program with no teaching job available to me or any of the other art teachers and to have a string of new animals I bring with me back home to my parents house. That is understandable my mom did mention that me and my brother cannot get another cat if we live at home with them, they feel that we already have to many animals in the house. We have 2 dogs and my sisters dog who sometimes stays over and my cat who lives with me now, but he travels with me.
Yes, the good news is that my parents promised me their blessing and their support of adopting more pets once I have a home and a job to support myself.
And yes, the bad news is that my dream cat will be in the arms of another lucky owner soon. It hurts me inside, but my dad told me to stop thinking about this female Savannah cat "and stop acting like a selfish spoiled child" "that I was putting myself first before everybody else" and "that I have to finish my school and my school work and complete my damn credential before I flunk out of school on account of a new cat"
I did not think of how I was letting my parents down and being a bad son by wanting 1 new special cat I had interest in since last year. My dad said, "that I was being selfish and self centered and only thinking of myself." I guess that meant they did not want me to go get another cat. Maybe they were being a little to intense about with me, but I am not sure if I am their scapegoat sometimes or if wanting to own 2 cats is out of control behavior that should be stopped? I really don't fully get it...how my wanting a second cat was such a bad and taboo thing for me to desire and want to pursue in life? I guess if I still have to depend on them for either love or financial support that they get to decide things like this in my life. My dad warned me that I can do what I want but not with him in my life. I guess this cat will have to wait and this cat will not be a part of my life. To bad I did not have the financial means to be self supportive right now. This only proves that I did not have what it takes to begin with; or this whole folly would not be a dilemma but a new addition to my life instead. I really hope that I can pull off in my future having what it takes to survive and navigate this world without ending up homeless or in a bad situation where I am not able to fend for myself. No matter how hard I work at trying to be a stronger person I really worry about my survival skills navigating myself on my own here in America and making ends meet and not socially blowing it and losing my future job with a social skills mistake I might make. I fear I might need the help of others around me the rest of my life and that at some point I will not have what it takes to survive and excel in life if I have only myself all alone to rely on without any help or support from another person to help guide or support me emotionally or financially.
A few days after first writing this I do realize the difficulty my parents face trying to help me out financially and trying make house payments, fix cars falling apart, feed and shelter everyone in the family, pay the vet bills and health care at Kaiser that always keeps going up, deal with gas prices killing us and strapping our cash at $4.45 a gallon right now, so for me to have another cat even if it will be a pet therapy cat and companion for me and even if I want this cat to enrich and brighten up the lives of others, my parents have more on their plate with responsibilities than having me find true love with a new cat who I am convinced is the cat of my dreams to love me back. I already have an amazing pet cat and we love each other and have bonded very closely, I just have so much love inside of me flowing out and I need a living thing to share it with, if I try to hard to give my abundance of love in me to a woman she will be very upset and unhappy, so pets are a safe place for me to provide a love and friendship without hurting or upsetting anyone. I also really love the fact that my cat and my dog love me back unconditionally with everything they have in their little hearts!!!
Yes, the good news is that my parents promised me their blessing and their support of adopting more pets once I have a home and a job to support myself.
And yes, the bad news is that my dream cat will be in the arms of another lucky owner soon. It hurts me inside, but my dad told me to stop thinking about this female Savannah cat "and stop acting like a selfish spoiled child" "that I was putting myself first before everybody else" and "that I have to finish my school and my school work and complete my damn credential before I flunk out of school on account of a new cat"
I did not think of how I was letting my parents down and being a bad son by wanting 1 new special cat I had interest in since last year. My dad said, "that I was being selfish and self centered and only thinking of myself." I guess that meant they did not want me to go get another cat. Maybe they were being a little to intense about with me, but I am not sure if I am their scapegoat sometimes or if wanting to own 2 cats is out of control behavior that should be stopped? I really don't fully get it...how my wanting a second cat was such a bad and taboo thing for me to desire and want to pursue in life? I guess if I still have to depend on them for either love or financial support that they get to decide things like this in my life. My dad warned me that I can do what I want but not with him in my life. I guess this cat will have to wait and this cat will not be a part of my life. To bad I did not have the financial means to be self supportive right now. This only proves that I did not have what it takes to begin with; or this whole folly would not be a dilemma but a new addition to my life instead. I really hope that I can pull off in my future having what it takes to survive and navigate this world without ending up homeless or in a bad situation where I am not able to fend for myself. No matter how hard I work at trying to be a stronger person I really worry about my survival skills navigating myself on my own here in America and making ends meet and not socially blowing it and losing my future job with a social skills mistake I might make. I fear I might need the help of others around me the rest of my life and that at some point I will not have what it takes to survive and excel in life if I have only myself all alone to rely on without any help or support from another person to help guide or support me emotionally or financially.
A few days after first writing this I do realize the difficulty my parents face trying to help me out financially and trying make house payments, fix cars falling apart, feed and shelter everyone in the family, pay the vet bills and health care at Kaiser that always keeps going up, deal with gas prices killing us and strapping our cash at $4.45 a gallon right now, so for me to have another cat even if it will be a pet therapy cat and companion for me and even if I want this cat to enrich and brighten up the lives of others, my parents have more on their plate with responsibilities than having me find true love with a new cat who I am convinced is the cat of my dreams to love me back. I already have an amazing pet cat and we love each other and have bonded very closely, I just have so much love inside of me flowing out and I need a living thing to share it with, if I try to hard to give my abundance of love in me to a woman she will be very upset and unhappy, so pets are a safe place for me to provide a love and friendship without hurting or upsetting anyone. I also really love the fact that my cat and my dog love me back unconditionally with everything they have in their little hearts!!!